Sigh... Finally I'm feeling better. For a few days there I wasn't entirely sure that I was going to even survive! Fasting and cleansing are VERY hard. I believe it will prove to be worth it though. My sense of smell is already better than it was before. I think that once I break the fast, this coming Wednesday (believe me I am counting down the days!!) and I eat a little, I will find that my sense of taste is also heightened.
Yesterday I had a major emotional cleanse. Poor Hubby... But when I woke up this morning I felt a million times better. My heart felt lighter and all day I was happy and bubbly, my normal self. What a huge relief!
I have to share this from tonight... We went to town, because after 5 days of being cooped up in the house I HAD to get out, plus I have read ALL my books and needed a few more. On our way home this is what I hear from the backseat:
"Mom! Do taxes really hurt?" My youngest, Logan asks this. I am trying not to laugh out loud and answer that yes, they hurt me anyway, but they don't hurt everyone. And some people can wear them just fine. (Okay, to clarify, Logan calls contacts, taxes. I don't know why, he always has. I think it's totally cute and though I have told him what they are really called, he keeps calling them taxes. Hubby didn't know what Logan was talking about. I quietly explained. Hubby went ahead and answered too.)
"Taxes hurt me REALLY bad. I've 'tried' them lots of times over the years, and I don't like them." Of course Hubby meant real Taxes. It's a fresh pain as we have just finished preparing our paperwork for tax season...
My Friend Annie over at writers and witches, and oh my! is having a winter giveaway! There are so many wonderful things in her "Must Haves" to-get-you-through-winter bag. Hand and foot lotion, music CD's, a mud mask!!, some organic hot chocolate (yummmm), FUZZY SOCKS! (I think that's my favorite...), and a dream journal! How fun! If you want to get in on the fun, you will need to head on over to her blog, and soon to enter!! When you leave her some comment lovin, will you please oh please mention me and that I sent you there? Thanks so much!!
As for the cleanse, yesterday afternoon and evening I thought I was dying. I was having flu like symptoms, and just really felt like death warmed over. This morning I woke up feeling like I was about 100 years old. I even walked like I was. All hunched over and limping. But I am starting to feel a bit better now... finally.
My poor oldest asked if I was going to die this morning, when he checked in on me before he headed off to school. How sad!? But I'm alive and I have a feeling that tomorrow I will be feeling quite well and ready to really hit the world of words again and get my novel all spiffied up for the contest! I cross my fingers anyway, since I only have a few more days before the contest.
To sum up! Please head on over to Annie's blog and enjoy!!
Sorry haven't been writing on here lately! Between writing my novel, or re-writing it, to get it ready for a contest in February, and having people email and come to "shop" our house, I haven't found the time!
We are selling EVERYTHING we own... we'll pretty much anyway! Once we are done selling, we will have a HUGE bean bag, one victorian style green chair, Hubby's and my bed, and a few baskets. That is ALL. It's an amazing feeling to unload all this stuff. We won't be able to take much into the motor home, so it's being sold, to feed us until we can move out, or Hubby get's a job.
I have put all of our photos into a scrapbook, so we will still have those. We will choose our MOST favorite books and take those, and I've gone through our clothes and gotten rid of over half of them. So we are ready in that way as well.
Hubby has me on a cleansing program. Honestly, I think I'm dying. He said during this fast/cleanse it's a great time to talk with God. I told him not to worry, I've been talking to God nonstop, sure that I'm dying. My whole body hurts, I have a roaring head ache, I have an upset stomach, my eyes ache and even my teeth hurt! But my body is busy flushing toxins from my system and with all the vitamins and pills that I take or have taken over my lifetime, it has a lot of work to do. So I lay in bed or on the bean bag in agony. It's all I can do to get up and feed my horse and chickens...
In a few days I'll feel better! I keep holding onto that with both hands.
Gramms memorial service was really beautiful. There were a lot of people there, people she had met and others that she hadn't ever met. She touched many lives during her stay here on Earth. I cried many, many tears.
My Uncle John gave a WONDERFUL talk about Gramms and how the Lord worked miracles in her life.
My Aunt Deena sang, it was a beautiful song. Our very good, close family friend Janice sang as well. It was wonderful.
There was great music. And lots of talk of Dancing.
We took the boys with us. They were so good! I was very proud of them. They sat so nicely during the service and were very tender hearted towards me and my little sister, Michaella, when we would cry. Logan would lay his head on me and pat my back. Ben would lay his head on Aunt Mika. Very sweet little boys.
Logan noticed the "big brown box" at the front of the room. At one point during the service, he leaned in close to me and asked, "Is Gigi in that brown box up there?" I said yes, her body was in there. He looked concerned and repeated, "Her body?"
I thought he was afraid that she was just sleeping and we had put her in there, so I said, "Yes, her body, her soul has gone up to heaven to be with Jesus."
His little forehead wrinkled up and he looked into my eyes, "Just her body is in there? Is her head in there too?"
OH MY GOODNESS! What a cute little guy! I KNOW that Gramms would have threw her head back and LAUGHED at that!!
Don't worry, I assured him that ALL of Gigi was in there... But not her soul, which is the part of her we all love and miss.
**I have a prayer request as well. Our friend Janice, mentioned above, is having some health problems and we all would ask that you keep her in your prayers. Ask God to lay his hands on her and cause a miracle in her life. Thank you....**
My Gramms went home yesterday, to be with her Jesus. I have been crying tears of sorrow and tears of joy since then.
Though I am sad for myself I feel a strange sense of peace. Because I know that she is Home. She doesn't feel pain any more. She is dancing and laughing with her God.
She can watch over us from there. I know that I'll be able to hear her laughter when I do something funny. I'll feel her pride when I accomplish the big things in my life, and I'll feel her tears when there is heartache. I'll always know that she is at peace.
Gramms had a big laugh. She was a tiny woman, but her laugh could be heard in Heaven even here on earth! She was in a commercial once. Do you remember the "Where's the Beef?" slogan? They started with the not so classy commercials and then moved into the really nice ones. Gramms was in the one that was from coast to coast, Manhattan NY to Manhattan MT. She of course was in the Manhattan MT one =) She had the only line in the commercial. It was when she threw her head back and laughed her big laugh. They liked it so much, they left it in the commercial. We always teased her about that. And she would throw her head back and laugh every time...
Gramms used to be a Ballerina. She danced and taught ballet as well. My Grandpa could put his hands around her waist, touching his fingers tips, hands encircling her waist. She was a tiny woman!
I will always remember dressing up in her old costumes with my cousin, JustWe3, and clomping around in her clogging clogs or her tap shoes. We would load up on the costume jewelry and prance around. I'm sure we were a site! She loved it. I was lucky and got to spend a lot of time at her house when I was younger. And she lived on my way home from visiting my Dad's, so I would always stop there on my way by.
Unfortuately my Boys didn't get to know GiGi (short for Great Grandma) very well, but they were very sad when I told them about her going to Heaven. They said, "So we won't get to stop at her house on our way home from Grandma and Grandpa's any more?" With sad eyes and down turned mouths. It makes me tear up again just thinking about it. Little ones are so sweet.
My cousins' little girl, who is the same age as my oldest, heard that GiGi wasn't feeling well yesterday, so she made her a get well card. Isn't that the sweetest thing?
Anyway, I just wanted to share a little about my Gramms with you. She was a wonderful, fantastic, awesome, generous, joyful, loving Grandma and she will be missed terribly.
I have REALLY sensitive skin. I have tried all kinds of makeup without success. I have tried the expensive stuff and the cheap stuff. I have tried the Mineral makeup and the Physicians Choice. None of it worked for my skin. I would break out, get rashes. The mascara makes my eyes tear and itch as does the eye shadow. So I gave up.
I went to my Dr. because I couldn't get a handle on my break outs. I have had more break outs in my 30's than I ever had in High School! This is something that I never thought I would have to deal with once I was an adult.
My Dr. prescribed some VERY expensive face cream. I had to save up for two months to buy it! He said I wouldn't see a change for at least 6 weeks. Luckily one tube would last up to 3 months. So I used it faithfully every night. I washed my face every night and every morning. I used moisturizer and the face cream. I followed the directions exactly.
After 6 weeks, there wasn't a positive change. After 12 weeks there still wasn't a positive change. It seemed that my break outs were WORSE and BIGGER than before! They were like boils now! Ugggg...
A couple of months ago, I made a drastic change to my diet. I have cut meat out entirely. I drink gallons of water a day (at least my bladder thinks so...) and lots and lots of green tea. Not only have I lost some inches, but my face is clearer! It hasn't cleared up entirely, but it is sooooo much better. I'm thinking if I just stay on this course, it will be cleared up soon.
I have always used natural products on my face, but I switched around the face soap I have been using to one with Tea Tree oil in it. I use an almond butter for moisturizer AND I found some make up that works!!
I wanted to share my trial with you so I could share THIS... I went to Etsy, my favorite place for handmade goods, and found makeup on there! There are people who make makeup!! And they use all natural ingredients, for real. They don't just say they do. They don't use any talc in their foundation, which is what I think was giving me the trouble before.
I LOVE this makeup! I can use the mascara I found on there and the eye shadow! It's so wonderful!
This is the foundation. It goes on my skin and feels like silk. Mmmmm.... Yummy! Then I spritz my face with some water that I added some essential oil to. The water "sets" the powder and it doesn't rub off. It stays on my face all the day long (and doesn't rub off on my clothes.)
This is the "lash paint" or mascara. They sent me an applicator brush, I get it a little wet and roll it in the powder, then apply it to my eyelashes and it looks like this...
(This is not my eye... But it really does go on this smooth! NO CLUMPS!!)
It's amazing to me that these people can make this wonderful makeup themselves, it is all natural, it works amazingly well and it doesn't upset my sensitive skin, but BIG time COMPANIES can not come up with this themselves. Instead they fill their make up with harmful chemicals. And we unknowingly slather ourselves with it. Our skin is our biggest organ and it readily absorbs those chemicals into our bodies. Anything you put on your skin, immediately goes into your blood stream. Not good. Makeup companies KNOW this, but they don't care.
That's why I LOVE Etsy. The people on there CARE about others. They are making beautiful things to share, to brighten someone's day, or to help them with skin issues. They make money too, but that is not their main reason for being there.
It's Friday... My Hubby Rocks Day! I LOVE this day =) (although I must say that my Hubby rocks everyday, if I wrote all the ways he rocks, my whole blog would be about him and YOU would be so jealous. so it's out of respect to you that I don't do that every day)
Today I want to share a few little Love Notes Hubby has given me over the years. This one is one of my FAVORITE ones =)
"Princess, I Love you, and I know it was a wish, but I didn't do one dish. I know I told you, and I'm not a liar. I was just too damn tired. I'll make it up to you honey. And hopefully you think it's funny.
I Love You."
What a nice way to find out that he didn't do the dishes... much more romantic than me just walking into the kitchen to see them still in the sink ;)
"Princess, Roses R Red Violets R Blue U R the Sweetest and the Cutest And Eternal is my Love for You.
Love, Your Sweetheart"
I know... I am SO lucky!!
And one more...
This one was really involoved. He put together a Treasure Hunt for me. This was the first note I found.
"Hello. I see you have found me. Well, we are going to play a little game. It is called "The Mystery of the Mad Nipers" and I believe you will find it quite intriguing. It works like this, you will be given clues and within the clues you will have to figure out where to go for your next clue. Clues can be in the form of riddles, rhymes, questions, statements, miscellaneous artifacts, people, books and anything else deemed appropriate. However, there is potential to skip certain clues and steps if you are extrememly clever. When the mystery is solved you will find out the forbidden secret. Good luck and if you should have any questions concerning anything, well too bad. But I will make finding your first clue relatively easy. CLUE #1: If I am brave and courageous, then why am I and my cousins called the missing link?
P.S. I Love You Very Much, You Touch The Very Essence Of My Heart."
There were 9 clues in all! I had to hunt all over our trailer house and even go over to my Mom's house! It was SUCH a FUN day. And my best friend Teresa was here visiting, so she got to get in on the fun... We had a BLAST!
Here's what we found at the end of the Treasure Hunt:
"Do not be fooled by its common place appearance. This key, like so many other things, can be much more. For this key represents Strength. Strength that you can unlock and call upon Whenever you need it, through life, through being a parent, through marriage. Whatever the case may be. Strength is a gift that lies in each one of us. Use this key to unlock Strength's full potential."
**(I copy/pasted this from an email I got today. I wonder when all the jails will follow Sheriff Joe's lead? I think it's so inspiring that I wanted to share it on my blog.)**
You all remember Sheriff Joe Arpaio of Arizona , who painted the jail cells pink and made the inmates wear pink prison garb. Well...SHERIFF JOE IS AT IT AGAIN!
Maricopa County was spending approx. $18 million dollars a year on stray animals, like cats and dogs. Sheriff Joe offered to take the department over, and the County Supervisors said okay.
The animal shelters are now all staffed and operated by prisoners. They feed and care for the strays. Every animal in his care is taken out and walked twice daily. He now has prisoners who are experts in animal nutrition and behavior. They give great classes for anyone who'd like to adopt an animal. He has literally taken stray dogs off the street, given them to the care of prisoners, and had them place in dog shows.
The best part? His budget for the entire department is now under $3 million. Teresa and I adopted a Weimaraner from a Maricopa County shelter two years ago. He was neutered, and current on all shots, in great health, and even had a microchip inserted the day we got him. Cost us $78. The prisoners get the benefit of about $0.28 an hour for working, but most would work for free, just to be out of their cells for the day. Most of his budget is for utilities, building maintenance, etc. He pays the prisoners out of the fees collected for adopted animals.
I have long wondered when the rest of the country would take a look at the way he runs the jail system, and copy some of his ideas. He has a huge farm, donated to the county years ago, where inmates can work, and they grow most of their own fresh vegetables and food, doing all the work and harvesting by hand. He has a pretty good sized hog farm, which provides meat, and fertilizer. It fertilizes the Christmas tree nursery, where prisoners work, and you can buy a living Christmas tree for $6-$8 for the Holidays, and plant it later. We have six trees in our yard from the Prison.
Yup, he was re-elected last year with 83% of the vote.
Now he's in trouble with the ACLU again. He painted all his buses and vehicles with a mural, that has a special hotline phone number painted on it, where you can call and report suspected illegal aliens. Immigrations and Customs Enforcement wasn't doing enough in his eyes, so he had 40 deputies trained specifically for enforcing immigration laws, started up his hotline, and bought 4 new buses just for hauling folks back to the border. He's kind of a 'Git-R Dun' kind of Sheriff.
TO THOSE OF YOU NOT FAMILIAR WITH JOE ARPAIO, HE IS THE MARICOPA, ARIZONA COUNTY SHERIFF AND HE KEEPS GETTING ELECTED OVER AND OVER! THIS IS ONE OF THE REASONS WHY:
He created the ' Tent City Jail'. He has jail meals down to .40 cents a serving and charges the inmates for them.
He stopped smoking and porno magazines in the jails. Took away their weights and cut off all but 'G' movies.
He started chain gangs so the inmates could do free work on county and city projects.
Then he started chain gangs for women so he wouldn't get sued for discrimination.
He took away cable TV until he found out there was a Federal Court order that required cable TV for jails, so he hooked up the cable TV again only letting in the Disney and Weather Channel.
When asked why the weather channel? He replied, "So they will know how hot it's gonna be while they are working on the Chain Gang".
He cut off coffee since it has zero nutritional value.
When the inmates complained, he told them, "this isn't the Ritz Carlton ...if you don't like it, Don't Come Back."
He bought Newt Gingrich's lecture series on videotape; that he pipes into the jails for the inmates to enjoy! Not!
When asked by a reporter if he had any lecture series by a Democrat, he replied "a democratic lecture series might explain why a lot of the inmates are in his jail in the first place."
With temperatures being even hotter than usual in Phoenix (116 Degrees), the Associated Press reports: About 2,000 inmates living in a barbed-wire-surrounded tent encampment at the Maricopa County Jail have been given permission to strip down to their government-issued pink boxer shorts.
On Wednesday, hundreds of men wearing boxers were either curled up on their bunk beds or chatting in the tents; which reached 138 degrees inside the week before...many were also swathed in wet, pink towels as sweat collected on their chests and dripped down to their PINK SOCKS. 'It feels like we are in a furnace,' said James Zanzot, an inmate who has lived in the TENTS for 1 year. 'It's Inhumane.' he stated.
Joe Arpaio, the tough-guy sheriff who created the tent city and long ago started making his prisoners wear pink, and eat bologna sandwiches, is not one bit sympathetic. He said Wednesday that he told all of the inmates: "It's 120 degrees in Iraq and our soldiers are living in tents too, and they have to wear full battle gear. But they didn't commit any crimes, so Shut Your Mouths!"
Way To Go, Sheriff! Maybe if all prisons were like this one there would be a lot less crime and or repeat offenders. Criminals should be punished for their crimes - not live in luxury until it's time for their parole, only to go out and commit another crime so they can come back to live on taxpayers money and enjoy things some taxpayers can't afford to have for themselves.
This is the first week for Wednesday's Walk down memory lane... To learn more about this wonderful day, click the button that is just over there... on the left hand side of your screen! Lynette will tell you all about it!
~Playing Dress Up~
My boys LOVE costumes. They dress up all year round. In fact they are already planning their Halloween costumes for this year! We, Hubby and I, have decided that we will not celebrate Halloween anymore. It just doesn't fit with our beliefs. So promptly the boys figured out that they will get costumes anyway and celebrate their own kind of Halloween every day of the year! How fun are they!? Talk about a silver lining...
My boys are VERY imaginative. I wouldn't let them buy costumes this year. I felt like it was throwing our perfectly good money down the drain (I mean really, they sell them for $25 a piece BEFORE Halloween, then mark them down to $1 after??? What's the mark up on those??). I asked them to decided who they wanted to be, then we would MAKE the costumes, using the clothes that they have in their room! They thought and thought, made up their minds, then changed them a few times everday, right up until Halloween. Boys will be boys!
Logan decided that he would be The Hulk. He has a wonderful imagination and put his costume together using a pair of green long underware and some old jeans that we cut off to be his shorts. Then I did go ahead and buy him a Hulk knitted face mask. I figured he could wear it all winter! And it's big enough to work next year too! He looked GREAT!
As for Ben, he was having a hard time coming up with something. We were going to wrap his whole body and face in gauze so he could be a Mummy. But after Logan decided to be the Hulk, Ben wanted to be a super hero too. He finally decided on the Black Spiderman. I did consent to buy him a pair of jammies that were decorated with Black Spiderman's "stuff". I figured he could wear them for a long time! And then Logan can wear them =) He looked pretty tough and was very excited...
Ben LOVES to dress up like Indiana Jones, with a vest, a button down shirt and khaki pants. He wears his old, too small for his head, fisherman's hat and carries around a long piece of rope that is his bull whip. It's really so cute! And he is very disappointed when people don't KNOW who he is. My poor Mom has to think quick whenever he is dressed up. It's a very sad feeling when you don't guess right the first time! If it's particularly hard, I stand behind Ben and mime what he is =)
Ben got this wonderful dragon cape for his birthday. He absolutely LOVES it and wears it over his other costumes. Here he is Dragon Black Spiderman... don't even ask me what powers THIS super hero has!!
Logan dresses up almost every day. Lately his favorite has been Superman. He wears a couple of shirts under his jammies, so it looks like he has big muscles... He even made the big "S" that Superman has on his chest. Then I saftey pinned it to his shirt.
Then for Christmas they got the BEST gift ever from my Mom... Black CAPES!! Hubby even got one of his very own. Oh Man... you should see them wearing their capes and sword fighting around the living room!! Priceless!!
On Christmas morning my brother braved the sickness (we were all sick over Christmas this year, the flu) and came over to say Merry Christmas. Only to open the door to Hubby standing there in his silver cape fighting off two little black caped boys. My Bro said "WHAT'S going ON here!?" And I promptly answered, "You've discovered our secret!!! We are actually SUPER HEROS!" To which he answered, "Well I already KNEW that." (He harbors secret desires to be a super hero too. He is 10 years younger than me and "forgets" that I saw him do all this years ago. He was as cute as my boys running around with his towel cape...)
Really we have TOO much fun around here!!
This is Logan's "Mean Face."
Here is Ben. They both got these totally cool lightweight capes to wear over the black ones if they so choose...
Hubby in his long flowing Silver Cape. It really is quite impressive! He calls himself Silver Knight, so he got a silver cape. He will always be my Knight in Shining Armor =)
I finally read this book. I don't know how many times I did pick it up and look at it at bookstores, but I never bought it.
I was very excited when I unwrapped it at our family "Christmas Party" a couple of weeks ago.
This book is a little blessing. It's just the right size to carry around, and carry it around I shall!
If you haven't read this book, I recommend that you run straight out and get it!! (Or you can participate in my 10 Things I Like About Me post and WIN a copy for yourself!!)
I plan on splurging, buying some copies and handing them out to family, friends and acquaintances. It's really THAT good.
If you have it, and haven't read it yet, just wait... the perfect time will come, for you to read it. That time when you just can't walk past it any longer, your finger will stop on it's spine as you scan your bookshelves for the next read. You will pull it out when the time is right and it WILL change your life and how you view the world. It's AMAZING!
One of the many things that I got out of this book is the idea that God isn't about doing, He/She is about BEING. He/She is about loving, living and light.
We, Humans, are about fear, blame, justice, responsibility, expectations and guilt. These are things we feel, but they don't have to be who we are BEING, if we let the light and love into our lives.
Another thing that I just have to share is this:
"Each choice that each person makes ripples out through time and relationships, bouncing off other choices."
That is huge!
Please, if you HAVE read this book, share with me what happened to YOU! I would love to hear it!! And the sharing of it is fun too =)
Oooh I'm so excited! It's finally the first Monday of the month!! You know what that means =) Time for the 10 Things I Like About Me List... Whooo Hooo!!
So the rules are:
*Please write 10 things YOU like about YOU! * Once you have put your list in My Comments, your name will be entered in a drawing held on Friday or Saturday of this week! Yes, you could WIN a PRIZE for telling me what you like about yourself!! * You are welcome to enter your kids, as well. Have them tell you 10 things they like about themselves. Be sure to put their name on their list so I know to enter them in the drawing!
On with the show!!
10 Things I Like About Me
1) I like my hair. (I just dyed it today and it's so cute!) 2) I like my hands. 3) I like how creative I am. 4) I like my sense of humor. 5) I like the fact that I am a great reader! 6) I like that I am pretty fun to be around =) 7) I like my eyes. 8) I like my height, not too tall, not too short! 9) I like my feet. 10) I like my teeth, they are so clean and straight!
I just finished reading this book yesterday. It was a great book! Truly inspirational.
She is a woman that has struggled with her weight her whole life, LITERALLY and came through the other side a healthier and happier person. I liked it because it didn't end with her deciding to be happy with her bigger self. She makes some very healthy decisions and comes out smiling!
Thanks for all the kind words and ideas for New Years! We did end up going to town, but not to First Night. Our weather here has been CRAZY and New Years Eve wasn't any different. It was snowing like mad and COLD. We didn't think the boys would have had a good time walking between campus buildings.
We had a couple of gift cards and a need for a few things, so we took them shopping! Shopping is sooooo much fun when you don't have to use your OWN money =)
The snow was so heavy and thick. It was beautiful falling in the lights. The roads weren't great, but after driving in California last February, it was no big deal! Plus we were in Hubby's four wheel drive truck.
I love that old truck. After we got "him", I am sure it's a boy truck, I named him Sam Elliot. Hubby was sure the truck was a girl and named "her" Samantha.
When we were in California, driving through the Redwood forest, whenever Hubby drove the truck, it over heated. Whenever I drove the truck, it was fine. I told him it was because he insisted on calling the truck Samantha, when it was SO obvious that it was Sam Elliot =) (Oh yes, and I named the old green horse trailer, George. I am so weird.) So now HE is Sam Elliot.
Yesterday our beloved German Shepherd puppy went to his new home. It was a hard decision for us to have to make, but with our future so uncertain, we couldn't keep such a big dog. He is HUGE!
The people that got him are so wonderful! They brought us some sausage and salmon when they came to pick up Bishop. Wasn't that so nice?
I seem to be rambling on and on, so I'll wrap it up now! I hope you are having a WONDERFUL New Year so far!!
Oh! My New Years Resolution is to kiss Hubby EVERY DAY. For some reason kissing has gone by the wayside =( plus I thought that was a FUN resolution!! MUCH better than "lose weight". LOL